Sometimes, what’s required is a leap of faith. To cross an unknown chasm towards a change that you long for. It’s a road you may not have walked before, with challenges unseen and a dread about making it to the other side. You even doubt if there is another side. Keep moving forward. One day, if you don’t already know it, you will come to experience the Light that is always here for us, earth “angels” who will come into the picture to support you on your journey.
I remember when my dad died, I had never experienced a loss like that. My emotions were all over the place. I knew that he was going to go, but I thought I had more time with him. It was heart-wrenching. At the time, I was only a year or so in with a 12-step programme, working on myself. I was afraid of losing any ground I had gained, afraid of moving backwards. Lots of turmoil, crying, emotions that I didn’t even know existed and was unsure that I could handle.
I remember, the angels that entered the picture as I stumbled and crawled. A wise, older woman from my meeting. She reassured me that while it might feel like I was going crazy, I could get through this to the other side. I couldn’t see it, but I chose to believe and trust her. I took the leap. In a lot of ways, it felt like one step backwards, two steps forward, like she said. Incrementally moving forward though. Two amazing girlfriends at the time who were also experiencing great loss in their lives. I truly believe that we became lifelines for each other when we may have felt like too much for loved ones in our lives.
I did have to orient myself in the right direction and take the necessary action, baby steps, to move myself forward. I came to believe and know for myself that the Universe always has my back and there is another side.
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